SCHOOL STARTS

Been a long long long time since i blog.. school starts which means.. BOO for me! THINGS CHANGED.. everything went back to how it used to be and it sucks max..(THAT"S WHY I HATE SCHOOL TO START.) i really cant be bothered anymore. quarrelling with you everyday and throwing tantrum at you, you cant seem to understand me WELL enough though.. as usual, everything you seemed to think as if it's like my fault.

1. Treating me like a puppet and throwing me aside when you know i am useless anymore.
2. Seem be with a good terms with someone i dont like and you are STUPID enough to had tell her everything. BECAUSE.. she tell others what you had told her to her classmates and mention your name too and oh yeah! who told me? Of course someone told me and I KNOW. DISAPPOINTED when you tell her everything from the club. AS USUAL, dumb and not learning the lesson.
3. YOU DONT KNOW ANYTHING AND YOU ASSUME ANYHOW. (sensitive? i doubt so.) You always said i dont want to tell you everything but because you are too STUBBORN to have listen to me and start quarrelling with me all over again.

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SIGH. school starts and i was hoping that it will end real SOON. i am afraid i will break down anytime. i cant take this anymore. It's so complicated and why am i always the one suffering. i hope i can disappear and not see you again. i really hope things change but yes! i know.. it's not gonna be the same again.

BORED..

HIEEEEE~~ been a long time since i blog.. been feeling down these few days.. feel that everything changed and nothing could put them back again.. i just know i cant avoid this forever and will have to face it no matter what.. currently, i will make myself busy and not to think about anything else.. for once. i thought that i have done a lot of things which i shouldn in the first place.. why be a good person when you can be a bad one? why be independent and relying on others instead.. sigh.. that's why i fell NOTHING and LEFTOUT. so right now, i have a job interview next monday at a child care centre and hopefully eveything goes well for me..

PS. I just hate you.. you changed immeidtaely and turn to others when you know i am of no use anymore. FUCKYOU.

FIRSTLY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! Singapore is 47 years old already! currently the same age as my mum! Lol. anyways if you came to think of it, we can actually celebrate Singapore's 100 year old birthday! (cuz i am 18 years old this year and if you actually calculate it, there's still chance!) #ilovesingapore

okays.. shall not say more on Singapore's birthdat since the national day parade is over and it's AWESOME! Although i never get to watch it on live larh! but if you see it from the tv, you can actually see that Singapore is really really beautiful! <3 the view is soooooooooooo omg!! DAMN PRETTY! So proud to be a Singaporean although i am a half malaysian (well, my mum is one.) Anyways, i just had my 2 IT modules test! Happy thing is these 2 fucking modules are finally over!! A HUGE HUGE RELIEF! bad thing is i sure flunk them and do badly! sigh.. i am not an IT person larh!! all those codings and IT related theory can make me go crazy!! >< SURE FLUNK AND MY SEM GPA! sigh.. dont even want to talk about it anymore~ anyways.. my major exams will be coming so i will be disappearing for 1 week (at least aagin!) BUT i actually bought something interesting!

I actually bought eyeshadow and concealer from FACE SHOP! THE CONCEALER IS DAMN AWESOME!!! IT'S DUO! and it really really suits me VERY well and i guess the price is quite affordable, with it's material and DUO somemore! which means it's both liquid and "dry" (dunno what term is it called!) Which means you can use it doubly! here's some pic of how it looks like!

As you can see from the last pic, the dry part is like a lip stick! and the bottom part is the liquid part like lip gloss! it's damn awesome! the salesperson also praise that i am quiteWHITE and she reconmmended me the 21 "tone colour"! HAHA! so happyyyyyyyy~ anyway she also told me that the dry part can be used to conceal your pores and all those little flaws you had on your skin while the liquid part is for your dark circles! And i have used it according to her advice and it works! I am actually a fan of face shop already cuz i already had their eyeliner, mascara, eyelashes, foundation, concealer and eyeshadow! AND THEY WORKED AWESOMELY FOR ME! And i am already a member already! ^^ Just love all their cosmetic products! <3

So this is the eyeshadow i bought! i actually choose this colour series cuz i realized only these colours suit me the best! :( i can't use those brighter colours de cuz it really make my eyes very weird that's why i only use these type of dark colours series eyeshadow!! HAISH!

AND... i bought DOUBLE EYELID STICKERS!!! I want to have those pretty parallel eyelids that's why i bought them! (Although i have double eyelids larh!) but mine very weird de! if i am tired, my double eyelids will disappear and will be what they called 内双眼皮!! >< VERY UGLY EVEN IF I WORE THOSE COSMETIC LENS! FML. So i actually bought and try whether it works for me and apparently.. noooooooo! cuz i dunno how to stick!! :( i wasted a lot of the stickers already! (Like 10?) and i couldnt get those lids i want! (I play with it when i was working! HAHA!!) sigh.. guess i have to watch more tutorials already!!! A pic of it~~

And ending off with..

HAHAHAH! okay larh.. i am gonna do my tutorials again!! (HARDWORKING KAY!) BYEEEEEEEEEEE~

Tests and exams are all coming!!! >< and guess what i am doing now? STUDYING! Urgh.. hate it and know what, there are 2 tests on the same day!!! somemore they are IT modules! wth.. i sure die le........... i know i wont do well this sem already, am prepared.. sigh.. dunno why everything dont go smoothly.. everything is like FUCKED UP?  I wont even have the time to blog too also.. so no pics or anything. JUST WORDS. anyways this is gonna be a short post and imma gonna go back to studying again! >< HAISH!

anyway, i sensed everything are making a difference already.. guess i will have to move on and live with it.. sigh.. :'(

A SHORT VIDEO OF A SONG I LOVE LATELY!

(what if i am really not by your side anymore? Will you notice and look for me?)

AT WORK

So it's been a long time since i posted something on this blog~ things are still the same..nothing changes BUT keven actually told me a lot of things which had allow me to look at things at a different perpective. So how should i say? Maybe it's me who's thinking too much all along..Keven's right. if he really loves me, this wouldnt be the way he treat me.. and maybe all those things that he did for me will be just like how he did to all his other "girlfriends".. yeah, it's me.. it's me who think it in the wrong way.. 1 year plus plus and things changed. he changed. i tried to keep a distance with him and ignoring his texts but.. i cant do it.. it's miserable.. seeing him in school everyday and doing projects with him.. maybe he doesnt even know how i feel.. sigh.. whatever i have done are all rubbish.. sigh.. and worse still, i always break down at the wrong time! WRONG TIME! projects, tests and sem exams are all coming and these shitty things happen again.. i know i cant do well for this sem already.. sigh..sometimes i wonder why would he affect me so much when he doesnt even care and bother about me and always thought that i am the one at fault and the one that makes him miserable..he's speaking out loud but me..? i am miserable on the inside but dunno who to talk to.. i dunno how many times i have cried for him and how many sleepless night that i have.. and oh yeah.. i am having a full medical checkup on 10092012 and should i tell him? i know i shouldnt cuz he will thought i am the crazy one and the one who thinks a lot.. sigh..

Ending of with some pics of me~ >< i know i very 自恋~ but really bored at work larh.. NO PHOTOSHOP. Only adjusted the brightness and the "smoothness" of the photo.

OKAY. THAT'S ALL. Gonna continue with my project already. BYEEEEEE~~~

我还是很在乎。。还在等你的简讯。。虽然很累但是睡不着。。真的变了吗。。